Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I'm Shouting!!!

Last week, two things happened I consider profound.  One, my mother gave her testimony at church while I beamed like the proud parent.  Second, bad weather happened in North Carolina at a Lowe’s store and amazingly everyone survived with no major injuries.  I told my girlfriend as we discussed, if it was me I probably would still be shouting.   At the time, I had no idea, how true my words would become a few days later…

I felt led to attend Good Friday service that evening at church.  I asked a couple friends and my mother, all had other engagements and were unable to attend.  Just when I made up in my mind I was attending by myself, I asked my sister if my nine month old niece could go with me.  Expecting her to say no, she surprised me and said yes.  I was elated and that's all I could think about during the day, my niece whom I call Lil Bit was going to church with me. 

The morning at work went by like a blur and the afternoon went even faster.  I told everyone I could think of, Lil Bit was going to church with me…  Evening finally arrived.  After watching her mother pack her bag and recheck it, we left for service.  My niece cried at the top of her lungs, to avoid going to sleep on the way there.  While driving I sang at the top of my lungs to get her to calm down, eventually I didn’t hear her crying anymore.   Instead I was greeted by her soft breaths of sleep.  I noticed the sky was turning gray and my main thought was to get to church before the rain came.  We made it before the rain began, I grabbed her and her bag and ran for the door.  I settled us into our seat while she was slumbering in my arms.


The service began and it was beautiful.  Lil Bit awoke after the first song and sat on my lap, looking around the sanctuary.  We sang and in between songs the pastor delivered his message.   More than halfway through, the lights flickered on and off.  At first, I thought it was a part of the service.  A few moments later, the security team announced there was a tornado passing and to get on the floor and take cover under the pews.  I did as I was told holding my niece in my arms, still not understanding what was happening outside.  Storms happen all the time, but tornadoes hardly ever touchdown in my neck of the woods, this is the thought going through my mind at the time.   While sitting on the floor seeking cover, we took communion.  We continued to sing praise and worship songs and asked to stay a while longer.  During this time we’re informed the tornado has moved past us.


A thought hit me, if we are being told about a tornado…my family is watching this on television.  I text my sister to let her know we are ok, she responds to inform me a tornado had been spotted and touched down in Westport.  Westport isn’t very far from where we are attending service.  I ask her to tell our mother we’re ok, she lets me know she already has.  I continue to hold my niece singing and praising the Lord.  After waiting for about 30 minutes I decided to head home, I had already been warned the highways near were closed and at a standstill because of the storm.  (Note: My mother taught her children as young as I remember; to always know more than one way to get home.  You never know when you have to take an alternate route home.) My mind is spinning of the alternate routes I can take, with my plan in mind I load my niece in the backseat once again and I proceed in blackness.  


The first alternate route I tried, I see a line of red taillights.  I turn around and try another route, and was greeted by the police who was directing traffic away from the area.  I can see the highways are at a standstill and my tears begin to flow.  By this time my niece is screaming at the top of her lungs and my joy is quickly fading; however, I’m still singing at the top of my lungs trying to get her to calm down.  Not because she’s crying, that’s the only way she knows how to communicate, it’s because I’m not sure if I can get us home.  

My phone is constantly ringing, from either my mother or my sister calling to check on us.  I tell my mother, I’m heading back to church and if I have to park in the parking lot to calm her, then that’s what I’ll do.  On the way back, I began to say Jesus, repeatedly which helped calm my spirit.  It was then I felt led to try another route I wasn’t very familiar with.  My niece is finally sleep and no longer crying at the top of her lungs.  I’m still seeing nothing but blackness, a sea of red taillights and lights of emergency vehicles.  I drive in the direction away from this, when over the hill I see the lights of a casino.  I immediately call my mother and tell her where we were, she calmly tells me how to get home.  I’ll never look at that casino the same again, for that night; it helped me in more ways than one.


I called my mother and told her I had to see her before I went to my sister’s for the night.  In the midst of all this, I’ve been told my home has no power, which meant I needed to stay someplace else.   My mother is waiting for me and is standing on the porch.  When I saw her standing there, my tears began to flow all over again and she held me.  She reminded me how blessed I was, and because of his protection we were spared.  After our moment, I left for my sister’s.  She meets us at the car and told me something, which made me feel better.  She knew her baby was safe and in good hands being with me.

We settle down for the night and the television is playing the news coverage of the storms.  As I watched, I realized I was too close for comfort as the storms and the aftermath happened.  The second route I planned to take was closed because some of the businesses were demolished and an eighteen wheeler was turned over in the middle of the road.  The last route which ultimately led me home, in the opposite direction more businesses were destroyed.  All I could do at that moment was give glory and honor to him, for keeping  us safe before, during and after the storm!!!  I’m still shouting and singing praises to him, for he is my Lord and savior, who has the final say!!! 


Sincerely, 
DWIC2S

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Holy Week

I felt led to fast during Holy Week, this year.  I’m fasting from sunset to sunrise, with no meals or nothing to drink during this time and praying.  I began Monday evening, and I was excited to begin.  For I know the power of fasting and praying, so I couldn’t wait to see what was going to happen.  I was like a giddy child, smiling from ear to ear and relieved when I went to bed.  When I awoke the next morning, I woke up to stormy weather.  Oddly this wasn’t a deterrent for me; I kept full force ahead, praising God and giving him the glory.  Once my day began, things spiraled out of control; my mind was all over the place and I couldn’t gather my thoughts as fast as it was spiraling.  All I could do was say the name, Jesus, repeatedly and calmness soon enveloped me.  I continued fasting that evening and set out to try again.

Yesterday morning, I awoke excited the same as the day before.  Once again I was attacked, this time I felt worse than being attacked the day before.  Trying to calm my spirit and gain solace, I had to get my hands on the word and quickly.  The scripture that was spoken to be was Hebrews 11:1. ‘Faith is the substance of things hoped for…’  I repeated this verse over and over again.  Yet again, he calmed and soothed my spirit.  As my day progressed, I realized something.  

I realized this is the week my Savior, who was sent to save me from my sins, was being persecuted and executed.  Even though, he knew he would be betrayed, lied to and hurt by those he loved and trusted, he unselfishly continued on his journey.  He was humiliated and scorned, yet he gave me the most precious gift ever!!!  So, I’m going to continue to fast and pray, with the same excitement.  While I’m clinging to him more than I have before, I too will be attacked, that’s the enemy’s job.  As long as I continue to seek him, he will continue help me battle the attacks.  For he’s the only armor I have and need!!!  

Happy Easter, 
DWIC2S

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Praise Will Confuse The Enemy

I've been singing praise and worship songs, seems like all my life.  I've sang some so much, I've added my own words and created my own version.   I've been singing these songs more and more, recently.  I've always listened to music while I'm at work, usually something soft and mellow.  A few months ago I switched to an online Gospel station.  So, I've been a singing cherub, lost in the words of the song ;).

In the last few days one song, raises my emotions to a level I didn't know I had.  When it comes on, I stop and think is this it, when it is, I'm like a kid on Christmas morning ;).  The words are simple...I have had my share my share of ups and downs, times when there was no one around, God came and spoke these words to me, praise will confuse the enemy...  The song is Praise Him in Advance by Marvin Sapp. 

This is my opinion about those few words.  Can it really be that simple?  To praise and worship the Lord, when things seem to be falling apart.  Not just praise him in the good times, but praise him in the bad times, as well.  With all this praising going on, it's sure to confuse the enemy.  Essentially, it's a weapon towards the enemy.  The enemy will not know how to attack, doesn't mean the attacks will cease.  They will continue to happen; however they will be less orchestrated.  So, for me I plan to keep praising and worshiping him in the good and bad times!!!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Issues

After discussing a situation over the weekend, I was asked this question...'If they don't have an issue with it, why do you?'  My first reaction was to lash out, but I held my tongue and responded with I'm human.  Which is true, I'm human and as a human being I have emotions... 

After a few moments, of my thoughts pondering the question, the Holy Spirit entered and reminded me of a church sermon from the previous week.  The pastor was telling us that if we begin to rely on God and put him first in our lives, things will begin to change and it will be noticeable changes.  He also stated things that didn't bother you in the past will begin to bother you or cause you to have issues with them, when this occurs it's a sign that you're being worked on by the Lord.  I thanked the Holy Spirit for speaking to me and calming my spirit.  Most importantly I'm thankful, he is working on me and things that didn't bother me once before, now don't sit well with me!!!

Yours truly,
DWIC2S

Friday, April 8, 2011

Strength

I receive daily devotions from an online site and lately it seems like they are right on time.  As if, my thoughts have been read and my questions answered.  Then again, that's what happens when you're a child of God, no matter what he's there and on time.

Today's message is entitled 'A Better Tomorrow', and dealt with healing after you've been wounded.  What hit close to home for me the most is the statement; which essentially states when a crisis arise you may feel you're at your weakest moment and a strength you didn't know you had is revealed.  I can relate to this statement, for life is a puzzle of highs and lows and during my lows is when I discover my unknown strength.  I'm thankful that I'm a child of God and his grace and mercy will endure for always!!!  It's because of him that my I have my strength and able to survive the lows when they occur. I ask you, what helps your strength when the unplanned happens?

Yours truly,
DWIC2S

Thursday, April 7, 2011

The Difference In My Life

I just finished reading a book, which got me to thinking about the subject matter discussed.  The story revolved around two individuals on other ends of the spectrum, both questioning the outcome of their lives.  It was an emotional read, that left me wondering how I would react if it were I in their shoes.  Would I have reacted the way they did or would I have reacted differently...my mind began spinning out of control on my thoughts.

The answer came to me, after a moment.  I know what has been the driving force and difference in my life and I'm truly blessed to have her in my life.  She's been my protector from the moment of our introduction over 30 years ago.  She fought for me and my siblings every chance she got and even now that we're all grown, she's still fighting for us.  She's had my heart from day one and forever will, for she offers me strength and encouragement when it's needed the most.  The difference in my life is my God fearing and praying mother!!!  I'm so thankful for her and I'm doing my best to let her know how much she means to me and the impact she's had on my life, I hope I'm doing justice.

So I ask what is the driving force in your life, who has made a difference in your life and helping you do what you can to survive?

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The Story of DoingWhatICan2Survive


It's amazing how something is laid upon your heart and at the time you have no idea why.  That's what happened several months ago when I came up with a name for my new email account.  I knew I didn't want to use my name, as I've done in the past.  So I contemplated for a moment and came up with DoingWhatICan2Survive.  These few words have stuck with me and I think about them often, asking myself what am I doing to survive.  I ask you, what are you doing to survive?

Yours truly, 
DWIC2S