Doing What I Can 2 Survive - Part II

Well I find myself at the same exact crossroads I was at a year ago, around the exact same time.  If someone had told me this would be happening to me yet again, I wouldn’t have believed them for a minute.  I’ve strived to heal and mend from a year ago, that it would be unfathomable for this to be happening again.  As I sit and type, I can attest, it is happening yet again.  The circumstances are different, but the pain is pain.  A real pain, I wish on no one.

A year ago, several events happened causing my mind and emotions to spin out of control, but one event sent me into an abyss I didn’t know existed.  For weeks, I was numb to my surroundings and surviving on autopilot.  My days were filled with autonomy and my nights were sleepless and long.  Tears became my companion, in an effort to alleviate my pain.  God placed angels in my life to offer me encouragement; I can admit it now, there were times when I wasn’t too receptive to them.  Slowly but surely I began to see the light, with his help and guidance.  He began to mend my wounds, he bandaged those that needed it and I set forth with my healing.  As I came out on the other side, I began to breathe and appreciate all his gifts he had to offer me.  Even during my time of unrest, he began preparing me and speaking to me about things I didn’t think would happen for me. 

It’s amazing how good you feel when you have a shot at a little piece of happiness.  For a few months, I felt like my world was stable and I too finally had been blessed with a blessing one reads about.  My smile was wider and my heart was overjoyed.  All the while I was thankful and giving God the glory for bringing this into my life, especially at the time he did.  I even believed he was speaking to me and guiding me through.  Maybe he is and is still guiding me, one thing I have learned…he knows all and reveals things in his timing.  I loved what I was feeling and when the feeling came to an end this past weekend, my emotions were on overload.  This time around, I allowed myself to express my feelings immediately, instead of waiting as I did last year ago.  Once again, he’s placed angels near me to offer me encouragement.  This time around, I’m more receptive to them and thanking them for being my venting board as I work my way through my maze of pain.

I have no idea what tomorrow holds.  I may be fine, I may not.  I do know my faith in my Father hasn’t wavered; he has a purpose and a destiny for me.  Most importantly, no one can stop the blessings he has prepared for me and preparing me for.  I’m going to continue to rely on him, be patient and be led by him, for he hasn’t brought me this far, to leave me now…

Yours truly,

DWIC2S

Happy Father's Day

Father’s Day is a day designated to celebrate fathers and this year I’m especially looking forward to celebrate mine.  I was grown when I was blessed with my father over five years ago.  He had met, fell in love with and married my mother.  Not only did he love and marry my mother; he immediately loved me, my brother and sister as his own.  He affectionately began referring to us as his children.

For so long, I thought I would never know what it is like to be loved, encouraged and adored by my father; but I’ve been blessed with him and I've truly grown to love, respect, cherish and appreciate him!!!  Even though, he’s only been in my life for a few years, it seems as though he’s been a part of my life since the beginning.  He’s become my ally on the battlefield as attacks happen.  If I need prayers, he’s one my prayer warriors I rely on.  If I’m in need, I know he’ll do his best to supply.   I know if he can, he would move mountains to make sure I had everything I desire.  I’m so grateful the Lord found favor to bless my life with you.  I’m wishing you the happiest of happiest Father’s Day, this year!!

Sincerely, 

DWIC2S

My Passion For Reading

I’ve always love to read, either for school or for my reading pleasure.  As a child I would read and was swept away as the stories unfolded before my eyes.  Some stories I remembered almost detail by detail, others are a little more muddled.  I even enjoyed a handful of books I had to read for school.  As, I grew older, my pleasurable reading took a hiatus because I felt I had more important things to accomplish …;)

A few years ago, I decided to read again.  I searched for what felt like forever, to find a book I truly enjoyed.  Finally one day, I received an email from a friend about an author’s new book being released later that summer.  It sounded interesting and I requested it from the library (Note: At the time I refused to buy books, if I could check them out at the library for free;). Times have since changed, which is another story, for another day…).  The book was excellent and peeked my interest in another character whom I was introduced to while reading.  I waited a few months before I investigated the other character’s story; I was elated when I learned his story was apart of a series.  Once again, I found myself requesting books from the library and my reading frenzy began.  

I read the prologue and first chapter of the first book in the series and didn’t understand what the big hype was about.  I turned the page to chapter two and I was hooked, baby!!!  It took me a few days to finish book one, and I was chomping at the bits to get book two in my hands, which I read in one night.  Book three I read just as fast, by the time I made it to book four I was on a roll.  Book five had me on pins and needles as I read, so when I made to book six I was surprised the story centered on another character, which I met in book one and made appearances throughout the series.  The series is still going and so is my reading frenzy!!!

I told this story, to inform of my joys of reading and how I found myself passionately reading again.  I also love discussing what I read and writing book reviews.  This month I'll be posting a few book reviews.  My first book review on my blog will be on Fast Break by Regina Hart.  Please keep an eye out...

Sincerely, 

DWIC2S