I recently heard a song similar to my post's title, and it rang so true to me. While I have the late, great Whitney Houston to thank for the words, I can truly identify with what she sang. The past couple of years has been one test after another and through it all I've learned my own strength! On this journey I learned to rely more on my faith and my heavenly Father. Which got me to wondering, did I have to survive these tests in order to grow closer to him and he reveal my inner strength.
See surviving is something I've always done, what other choice did I have? There was a time I thought I knew better than most and even the one who designed my life. As I've stated in a previous post, he got me straight and since I continue to learn my own strength. The difference now is, he's a part of every decision and move that I make.
As I sit and pen this post, I'm surviving another test and some may consider a dark moment in life. Last weekend I received word about two deaths. One was my grandmother, who is my biological father's mother and the other was the close friend of a very close and dear friend to me. I'm dealing with several emotions at the moment, I have to be honest about my grandmother. True she was my grandmother and I loved her as such; however, I don't consider us as being close. To strain the situation further, my siblings and I haven't been close to our biological father for several years. Of course there is more to the story, which I'll delve into in the future. At the moment it's not about him, it's about paying respect to my grandmother, for I recognize, if it were not for her, there may not be a me. As I prepare for services this week I'm relying heavily on the strength he gives me, which becomes my own!!!
Sincerely,
DWIC2S
